Journaling, Cherry Diaries- it’s been a minute

Hello, I’d say I’m in a depressed state, I had therapy today and it’s going slower than I had hoped. Ever so slightly helpful but I feel like it could be more?

It’s a tough spot because I like this therapist more than any other therapist that I have worked with so far, but I still feel like it is going slowly and I am wondering if I should have worked with the more expensive and more experienced therapist who I really really liked talking to on a payment plan.

I don’t know.

I took my medicine about 10 minutes ago and I guess it could possibly be kicking in?

I also feel like shit a lot. I have to say, just like physically my stomach bothers me a lot. And I’m tired a lot and when I last got a physical not so long ago all my levels were normal so wtf is wrong with me.

It’s probably a food issue partly- there is a lot of that in my family unfortunately- but it’s such a bitch to figure out what exactly is wrong.

I feel better since going almost totally gluten free but not entirely.

Why would you read this? is this interesting?

This is a real mental health journey in real time with starts and stops and fall backs and what am I doing and hi.

Everything sucks.

What should I do right now? Should I clean my room? Should I learn about SMART goals? Should I stop using should? should I fall apart? idk.

maybe call someone? let’s do that.

Love

Cherry — welcome to my life- a snapshot, a polaroid, a table scrap? a scrap? something- a little piece, a crumb, welcome

Love,

Cherry

OOO! I think I feel that kicking in!